I feel like I need to elaborate a bit more on my previous blog post about the most difficult time in my life because I left out a very significant piece of that puzzle that still, to this day, hurts me. I grew up mostly having cats around and never was much of a dog person; until I became a dog owner. I never knew the love that I would/could feel for a dog and I haven't been the same since. With the divorce, came an extremely tough decision that I still regret but know was the best for him. We had a black lab puppy named Max and he was my baby. I took him for walks, runs, organized puppy play dates and even had him in doggie daycare a couple days a week. He would come to bed with me every night and slept on my side of the bed. Even though he got me up before the sun came up, I still loved getting up with him to go for an early morning walk and have Mommy and Max time. He loved going to Petsmart and he loved other dogs and people. Not a day goes by that I don't miss him and that I don't wish he was with me. I knew that I would probably not be able to afford having him right away and I knew, with my long hours at work, that he deserved more than being stuck in a cage all day just waiting for me to get home. He is at a great home now with two other "siblings," one of the sweetest women I've ever met and he gets to swim in their pool every day when it's nice out. He's never put in a cage and gets to run around outside all day. It warms my heart to know he's in a good home (with a woman from his vet's office) , but not a day goes by that I do not miss him. I never knew how special it is to have the unconditional love of a puppy and to feel the love I do for mine. A part of my heart will always be empty without him in my life.
When I decided to start this blog, I knew that I was not going to include names or pictures of my friends and family or anyone else for that matter and I am still going to honor that in this post.
I have been through a few difficult things in my life (in my personal opinion), but there is one instance that has proven to be the most difficult for me and that was my recent divorce. I will not go into details about the "why" of the situation only to say that it was not a mutual decision and it was not handled, discussed or processed in a mature, respectful manner. I was bitter for quite some time and in a way I feel like I might still be a little bit, but nowhere near where I was before. I'll go back to the cliche that everything happens for a reason and while there are a few reasons that I know this had to happen, there still are a few things I don't quite understand, but I realize that I may never understand them and it's not always up to me to have all the answers. It's my job to brush myself off and get back up on my feet and continue on with my life. It is not the fact that it happened that is the most difficult part. The hardest part for me was everything that I sacrificed and gave up only to have it turn out the way it did. I have always been close to my family and even given how large my family is, we always spend time together and get together for h0lidays and special occasions. I spent most of my time on weekends watching my niece and nephew grow up and being a big part of their lives. Before I go any further, I'm sure some of you might be saying "you chose that life so you knew what you were getting yourself into." (By the way, I feel it would make more sense to you if you knew that he was (is) in the military). Which is very true and yes I chose that life. However, I did all of that for someone that I thought was on my side and was on the same page as me. Regardless of our situation and how long we were together, I realized that we really don't know some people as much as we think we do or as much as they try to convince us of the type of person they are. So after moving away from my family and friends and leaving a good paying job, we moved to where his job took him and I had to start over. Don't get me wrong, I have made some great friendships here; many of which I know I will carry with me the rest of my life, but nonetheless, I am back at square one and having to start all over again. I have yet to discover the real meaning as to why things happened the way they did, but I have discovered that I need to work on finding myself again and figuring out my purpose in this world because I lost that about a year ago. We all deal with things differently and on different time frames, but I feel like I have done pretty well considering. I have my days where I question things in my life, but I think that's natural for everyone not just someone that went through what I did. Life is full of ups and downs and I'm learning to roll with the punches, take the good with the bad and keep living. In one of my previous posts, I included how my trip to my aunt's in North Carolina was an eye-opening experience for me and it truly was. That was one of those times in my life where I had a gut instinct that I was going to be okay and that things happened exactly the way they were supposed to; I'm just working out the details. Thank you for reading; if you made it this far! I've gotten a little behind in the blog challenge because I've been working so much lately and I'm also jumping around the topics because some of them just don't really apply to me and that would only effect my readers because they would not be very interesting topics to read. Today I chose the topic of my pet peeves. If you work with me or are one of my really good friends or family you know that I am super sensitive to any sounds that people make, most notably with their mouths; chewing (most of the time with their mouths open), cracking and chomping gum, constant sniffing without blowing their noses, pen clicking, whistling, biting into an apple and sometimes heavy breathing if it's too quiet. This leads me back to the topic of Misophonia. If you haven't already read that from a previous post, Google it. You'll probably laugh like most people do, but I'm proof that it does exist; and, no, I can't just "tune it out." Beyond those types of sounds and noises are a couple of other things that just bother me. When people do not use their turn signals (this is no optional and you can get a ticket for it people!); how hard it is?? To me, it's habit and I do it without even thinking. While I'm on the subject of other drivers, it bothers me when people do not turn right on red. Obviously if there's a sign that says No Turn on Red, I get that, but when there is not sign and no cars coming and the car in front will not turn right on red. GO!!! Holy crap! Or when drivers ride up right behind me so close I can't see their headlights then when I do get over they never end up going fast enough to pass me or that go super fast and then slow way down constantly. Turn your cruise control on if you can't handle one constant speed. Or better yet, just get in the right lane and out of my way. I saved probably my biggest pet peeve for last; when people say they will do something and then do not do it or constantly bail on plans. If you're not going to follow through with something, then do us both a favor and do not say that you will do it. If there's a possibility that it might not happen, then don't say yes. Now, I do understand that things happen and stuff comes up, but every time?? I don't believe that. And if you always "forget," get yourself a planner or notebook. Okay, rant over. Wow, I sound terrible, but those are just the things that honestly seem to happen a lot that get under my skin.
I apologize for being MIA for so long and hopefully I can get back into the habit of posting daily through this challenge. Once it's over, I haven't decided how often I will blog, but I'm hoping to post on the same day(s) each week. Thank you for stopping by. I follow some youtubers and their blogs and they do monthly favorites, which is something I have thought about doing. If any of you have thoughts about topics or things you would like me to post about, please leave a comment. I would love to hear what you think. After this challenge, I think I will post about my DIY projects, art work ( I will put up a gallery of past projects ), photography and fitness/health-related topics. Let me know what you'd like to see. I love to search other blogs and see how they set them up and what they blog about from day to day. Now that I"m working two jobs I do not have nearly enough time to surf and browse as much as I'd like to, but today's topic is a list of my five favorite blogs. I'm not sure that I could come up with just five because I like to ready different blogs with different content, from food to fitness to DIY and crafts and fashion. A lot of the blogs out there today happen to tackle many of those topics all in one, which I love, so here's a list of some of my favorites...I'm a big fan of Instagram and follow all of these blogs on there as well.
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AuthorHey! My name is Kristy. I'm an Ohio girl that loves eating, painting, crafting, photography, DIY projects, working out and running and going through this thing called life and trying to make the best of it! Thanks for stopping by my page. Archives
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